Day One MentalityΒ 

Today my boyfriend made a solid attempt at suppressing a giggle when I said “tomorrow I get back to gym!” … 

Let’s be honest, he has heard that nearly every week for the past few months!

I was happy to blame everything under the sun for that- including him! Too many dates around his hectic work schedule and pure laziness on my behalf.

But really, there is no excuse. You put first your priorities, and it has obviously not been my priority for awhile. I have been inconsistent and my heart hasn’t been in it. Ive enjoyed my sedentry lifestyle a bit too much and now I don’t like it anymore. 
I miss bouncing out of bed early every morning and tackling every day with enthusiasm. Thats what a healthy routine gives me and for awhile I was happy to just relax and let work take a priority. Most of us do! 

There is a thing called life that needs to be lived!
One thing I know I, and many of us do, is develop this ‘day one’ mentality where we make one golden day where our new plan or lifestyle has to start. Usually this day has to go perfectly. Make it a January 1st, first day of a new month, on a monday- whatever- there just has to be that pinpointed day ONE.

This mentality leads to many of us using the time between now and that day to act up impressively. Eat all the bad food because the diet has not yet started kind of behaviour. 
What is wrong with this? Well it normally continues to be put off. We dont get around to starting, and in the mean time our bad habits have increased for an extended period of time. 

I believe it is secretly a fear of failing- as technically you can’t fail if you haven’t started! So we feel safe in the fact that we haven’t begun and therfore our actions arent accountable. 

Whats wrong with this?  

It is a false safe net.

Safe = Settled, Comfortable 

Don’t delay starting. Don’t assign a ‘Day 1’ to begin chasing your goals. Plan and execute continuousy. Be fluid – start now, today, this minute. Get excited now and harness your resolve and motivation!
This has been my pep talk to myself- don’t think. Just do. 

What are your thoughts about using a Day 1? Do you see this mentality?

Getting Started

Getting started can be really difficult.
One thing I have found hard to ‘start’ is blogging. For years I have endeavoured to make it something I do consistently, and yet it still hasn’t happened. 

The excuses have ranges from lack of time or content idea’s to the all paralysing excuse of letting fear stop me. Reading and writing is something I have loved since I was small child but every year I get older as an adult I seem to have gotten further away from my joy. Filling my life with all sorts of things and not chasing my love for literature and art. 

It’s starting to bug  me. I see inspirational posts about chasing your dreams but I just always apply that to those gym or career inspired goals instead of my actual dreams. 
That is what my blog was originally for, the first time I made one. Then I was introduced to the ideas of branding and suddenly I was paralysed because I don’t know my “brand”. 

I don’t want or like to have a brand. That sounds like selling and I hate selling. However, I have learnt that branding, image, selling- these aren’t just terms in business. 

I will always have a target audience. I will always have something to offer. 

But trying to define that and theme or write my blog ‘appropriately’ sucked the life out of my blogging attempts.

Since I do love reading, I have also been worried about my writing style. I feel so out of practice in writing that I don’t know how exactly to bring together my voice. How to start, how to sign off, my point, my call to action?

Sometimes I have an unpopular opinion. Am I scared of facing criticism? Yes. Am I worried I won’t articulate my point of viewing well enough? Definitely. 
But today, I have been reading some blogs and thinking to myself- I am letting all of this fear of perfection stop me from starting. I am letting the fear of failure stop me at the gate. 

I know that failure is the most readily available option, and that to succeed in anything we have to get mighty comfortable with failing often and failing big. Learning from mistakes to perfect the future. 
I don’t need to be perfect or have personalised graphics and ads on my blog. I don’t need insane content in every post. My audience is likely to grow, to die, to change regularly. The only constant will be me, and I will change. I love changing, I love growth. There is nothing wrong with looking back in a years time and cringing at my past posts. That is life and I know I love looking  back at that, there is so much change and it is motivating.

I dont want to look back in yet another years time and still have an empty blog. I started this in 2014, grabbing the URL as it is my favourite motto, used in my favourite tattoo. It’s so personal to me I wanted it and I want it to be something that lives. 
So with these thoughts in my head today, I decided to throw them up here before I wrote off another writing idea. I know I am not alone with the challenge of blogging- there are so many group writing challenges that hundreds of people join- so I am far far far from alone in this!
What fears have stopped you from posting? How have you pushed past? 

Id love to hearπŸ™‚

Resolutions by September

Until recent years, I thought about resolutions between December and March and never inbetween.

Recently, I was acheiving most of my resolutions.

This year, however, I set myself so many resolutions that by March I burnt out, had a quarterlife crisis at my birthday, got back up then spread myself so thin over everything that I couldn’t achieve even one thing.

Multitasking is a great skill, but when you abuse it, it doesn’t work at all.

The fear of repeated failure can also sink in, paralysing you from even trying- which is what happened to me next. 
I’ve spent the year no longer trying on any thing that I set for myself. This isn’t where I set out to be and it isn’t where I plan to stay. Failing is the most readily available option and we will fail repeatedly when we set ourselves good goals. Getting used to that gritty taste is important to getting to that winning outcome. 
So, instead of writing off 2016, I am reassessing my resolutions and establishing new goals. I can still achieve and work on more than one thing, but in order to make great progress I need to prioritize my goals and put all of my energy in to one at a time. 

I plan to finish this year off by studying like crazy and saving like a champ. Two goals I highly prioritise that can be done simultaneously without affecting the other. 

The progress I make in the next 3 plus months will snowball and by reaching success quickly I will be motivated to hit my next projects. 

We don’t need a new year, month or Monday to pull ourselves up. Time is fluid, it isn’t really in blocks all divided. We have alot of activities available to kill time- but I personally could do with reviving some lost time! We can’t get time back, so don’t write it off or let it sail past you!

Use every second.
How are your goals going? 

Do you spread yourself thin as well? Have you written off this year or are you using it to the fullest? 

Are you planning your next moves? 


The crap thing about motivation is that you can’t rely on it. You can’t really conjure it up.. it can hit at inopportune times and evaporate when you need it. . So if you have it run with it. And if you don’t?  PUSH.
Inbetween goals and projects is a thing called life that sometimes just needs to be done seperately.
I felt like I was pushing for a really long time and I took a full year doing nothing but existing, and I needed it so badly. When I came away from that to push, motivation was nowhere- absolutely nowhere- at all and I pushed until I ran myself down and I stopped.

One aspect of myself is that I am so incredibly lazy. And sometimes things come to me easily which reinforces my lazy behaviours and habits.
If I think about it, its a sin to blessed with easy success and not harness that fully but I’m working to that.
My point is so far this year I have had these goals that I have wanted for a long time and yet I have not been putting in even a pinch of work for it. But I have mentally pushed myself. Reminding myself repeatedly that my actions are what matters and that I need to walk the walk or shut up.

We all work differently and that’s how I work until everything clicks and when it clicks… it fucking CLICKS.

Tonight it clicked πŸ‘‘


The Next Version


You are literally fighting with yourself when you try to make personal improvements. You are fighting your comfortable mentality, your previous choices, ingrained habits. You are going against your own grain and it can throw you into a confused state where you question and doubt yourself.

Every mistake you make make more than once becomes a choice and a habit that dictates a pattern to the next decisive moment.

So don’t be disheartened when you fail a thousand times over.
Failure is always an option. It is the most readily available and popular option. Success is the rarity. So expect to fail but fight for the win. Never expect it to be easy.

Life will most likely throw some curve balls your way, but this is what happens.  Everything changes and you need to bounce those hits and keep those eyes forward.
Nothing worthwhile comes without sacrifice. See these challenges as the the obstacles that they are, as an indirect consequence of your actions rather than a victim mindset of the world trying to take you down. When you use this perspective you maintain control over your actions, your stress levels and your feelings.

If you are tired, rest, but never quit.

This is a Sign!


An amazing Periscope broadcast.

Toxic relationships. Ive been there. This was amazing to hear being on the free side and I wish I had heard it years ago.

So I am sharing this wisdom. If you are unhappy, if you are mediocre, if your are undecided or constantly unsure this is your sign.

Follow Ilyssa on Periscope @ohilyssa or Insta @ohilyssa
This needs to be shared in high school. We need to hear this early in our Iives.

Fear and Mindset

β€œFear is not real. It is a product of thoughts you create. Do not misunderstand me. Danger is very real. But fear is a choice.”

-Cypher RaigeΒ 

After Earth had this amazing quote spoken by Will Smith.

Everyone fears.

My biggest fear is heights, or so I tell everyone. That is a pretty reasonable fear as heights can pose a very real danger.

But really sometimes my biggest fear is the same as millions of others of people and that is fear of being judged. So here I am preparing to get on stage with nothing to hide in allowing, asking, people to judge me aesthetically and I am going to prance around with such confidence and still say that I fear it.

Insanity!! But maybe this is why I want to compete. To take ownership back from those fears. To break past that boundary so it is not a fear anymore.

You can react to fears in many different ways and I am using mine to drive me to achieve something that I am uncomfortable about and to set a new standard of confidence and accomplishment for myself- regardless of the result on the day.

Own your fears, they are your choices.

8 weeks to go.

Update 6Feb

A quick update on current events.

Now 8 weeks out from INBA.

Posing advice and practice coming through thick and hard. I am really trying to embrace the ‘Fake it until youΒ Become It’ attitude- due to work roster tomorrow will be my first group posing for nearly a month so we will see how well I can fake it with an audience again. Its cool to rock it in your home half naked and another to do it at the gym with 4 wall mirrors.

I feel I am coming in on track for April but just trying to keep myself focused on everything at this point and not worry about the end day.

My bikini order is in with Lovelee Swimwear and I cannot wait to get my order!

It looks as though my event will be hosting a one-piece category so I am looking to order from All4Me but I am going to look at swatches with friends first and talk to the event organiser to get a better understanding of the category (judges looking for personality or promotability etc?) then I will have an idea of how I want to look.

I have online posing coaching with the wonderful Skye at EdenFitΒ I really encourage anyone to join her coaching online, she knows what she is talking about! You will learn a lot more than just posing.

Otherwise I am just busy with work and study. Each Unit I swear I wont be in a rush to hand it in but so far it hasn’t gone this way…. maybe by my last unit! This month has already started on such a high as far my ambition goes I need to really pull some extra action out for everything I want to achieve. So excited still for this year!

Enjoy some of my sketchy first poses. Lets see how much better I get -(hopefully way better!)


8 weeks out is still considerable time but already I have the coaches asking me who I have organised for hair, makeup, tans, how is posing etc.. geez! The official event info went up this week so now I can look at organising these things in the next week or so. Going to recruit some friends tomorrow morning who are competing and see what we can organise together for the day.

Part of me is feeling daring enough to try and hair and makeup myself, but the sensible side is wondering how I will cope with that on the day, and how I will feel if feedback comes back that I looked like a clown?

Body Composition Update

I will never be one of those people who denies the truth, I wont sit here and say I did my best if I did not.

October 28th 2015 I got a body scan at the start of what I planned to be a prep, a transformation. I got back the results and they were alot worse than I thought and it shook me into a downward spiral, a mental funk that I just could not shake.
I was inconsistent at gym and my diet wasn’t close to what it should have been.
I always advise my friends to be prepared and I didnt prep. I just knocked stuff up and I failed. I had returned to old habits and they flared up.
I also had holidays which went well until I returned and the good old orphan Christmas hit hard.

But I am ready now. I am now planning to enter INBA in April and I am ready.
Today I had another scan this time with zero expectations as I just wanted to know where I am so I can set realistic expectations. No mind games or disappointment.

Far from it I now feel equipped for the next 11 weeks!!!
It won’t be easy. It won’t come without resetting my old habits again but I am ready to take that head on and I have so much support.

I have the scans here for comparison! In about 10 weeks with an average diet and inconsistent exercise I have still made some achievements.

October 28 2015


Total weight 63.7kg with 29.9%body fat and 42.97kg lean mass. Most fat in my legs, bum and thighs.

January 15 2016


Total weight 62.4kg with 25.9% body fat and 44.6kg lean mass. Still carry most in my legs.

Loss of 1.3kg
Loss of 4% fat
Gain of 1.62kg of muscle

The fat around my organs has also dropped (while overall bodyfat is important where we carry it is a huge health indicator! Women typically hold more fat in their lower body. Visceral fat the fat in your torso and in your trunk shouldnt be too high so loss in there is good! This why we care about our waists other than looking for abs!).

For 10 weeks of not applying myself I am pretty pleased. I am pleased to see where I am and able to set some goals for this new prep.

INBA 2016 I am coming for you!!!

Year of Focus

More self reflection!
I feel this is the year I will be learning and exercising focus.

I am a daydreamer. Always have been. I could spend hours alone with my thoughts, inventing scenarios that would never happen, exploring a life I could make for myself and deciding if I like it or not. Replaying the past.

I love novels for this reason I can imagine the characters the whole world that a book will tell you about whether it is fact or fiction.
This is why there is outrage when books and movies dont match up! We are so invested in our imagination that the wrong actor will shatter our world and enjoyment.

However this isn’t the most productive trait of mine. It has it’s time and place but it means I can perform alot of tasks with partial attention and this isn’t getting me where I want to be as efficiently as possible.

I want to practice focusing on the present moment instead of mentally being elsewhere.
I really feel this will be a year long goal but something I can acheive and succeed at. I havent made any self development goals before, I have just observed my progress afterwards.

I plan to start and finish each day with an intention and to remind myaelf periodically of this intent to keep on track.

I am hoping it improves my memory as well as I have the most shocking memory of all time!

So there it is. . My theme for this year.πŸ™‚